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...Beast? I'll name it Bob.
Oct. 9th, 2008 12:09 amI started writing this during just a shadow headache. Lo and behold, it decided to turn into a cluster. While I was describing it. Fuck you Beast, Fuck you. DX
Well, I've finally given in to the whole "beast" thing. People with cluster headaches refer to their headaches as the 'beast', 'devil', 'monster' etc. I've finally started doing it. DX It only took... *looks at the date she joined the clusterheadache boards* ...117 days to make me start thinking of it as that. o_o;
I mean, first of all, is the shadow headaches. It's like some big guy is just pressing down on your face. They sit there and taunt you. Like.. "You're going to have a cluster later, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it, but wait for it. I'm going to sit right here, and remind you for the next few hours..."
Then, the beast decides to really manifest, and it feels like there's a gigantic spike being driven into my head or my eye. Or like maybe there really is some big invisible monster with just one long tooth slamming it into my eye socket over and over. Chomp, chomp, chomp.
Now my Stadol is kicking in, and it's still painful, but it's easing up slowly... It feels like it's a fight to finally make the beast succumb to the medicine and go to sleep again. Until it's time for it to wake up again.
...And all of this, is slightly related to my family worrying about my mind breaking. XD They're worried the stress of it is going to drive me nuts.
Well, right now, it's taken care of. 3 headaches a day unless I come across a trigger, I take the Stadol for each one of those, and I'm okay. Usually. Sometimes I have to wait part of it out, but it's not nearly as bad as it would be without any medication all together.
Plus I'm getting my oxygen soon. :D It's gonna get a lot better.
Well, I've finally given in to the whole "beast" thing. People with cluster headaches refer to their headaches as the 'beast', 'devil', 'monster' etc. I've finally started doing it. DX It only took... *looks at the date she joined the clusterheadache boards* ...117 days to make me start thinking of it as that. o_o;
I mean, first of all, is the shadow headaches. It's like some big guy is just pressing down on your face. They sit there and taunt you. Like.. "You're going to have a cluster later, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it, but wait for it. I'm going to sit right here, and remind you for the next few hours..."
Then, the beast decides to really manifest, and it feels like there's a gigantic spike being driven into my head or my eye. Or like maybe there really is some big invisible monster with just one long tooth slamming it into my eye socket over and over. Chomp, chomp, chomp.
Now my Stadol is kicking in, and it's still painful, but it's easing up slowly... It feels like it's a fight to finally make the beast succumb to the medicine and go to sleep again. Until it's time for it to wake up again.
...And all of this, is slightly related to my family worrying about my mind breaking. XD They're worried the stress of it is going to drive me nuts.
Well, right now, it's taken care of. 3 headaches a day unless I come across a trigger, I take the Stadol for each one of those, and I'm okay. Usually. Sometimes I have to wait part of it out, but it's not nearly as bad as it would be without any medication all together.
Plus I'm getting my oxygen soon. :D It's gonna get a lot better.
