Pixie-elf

Okay. Feeling a bit better now that I got all of that out. Done crying at least. That makes this much easier. My system is empty, tho, my headache is a bit worse :/

This is where the damn breaks,
This is where she fakes it...
Most of the time, my head's just fine...

It's giving me a headache,
I'm PRAYING it's just a mistake,
And my head's on fire..
My head's on fire...

We may take a trip to El Paso, and/or Alabama btw. ^_^ Dunno when tho!

I am irritated at the moment.

THIS IS THE THIRD PERIOD I'VE HAD IN AT LEAST THE LAST MONTH AND A HALF! It might be the past -month-, but I think Month-and-a-half, would be more accurate. Why the fuck has my body decided to start doing this? I mean, does it want to be anemic yet again? I can get me not having one for 3 months. Dr.Helen and I agree. that's my body protecting me because it needs to keep the blood in at that point... But why the fuck is it doing -THIS- again?!

Thank GODS I have an appt. w/ Dr.Dallas coming up. Hopefully he won't try to send me to the gyno's in Galveston yet again because honestly? They did not listen to me. Which, REALLY pissed me off.

Either way, he needs to know, and I need to make sure I keep a record of this, because otherwise I won't have anything to tell them. I'm still annoyed though... It had been fine for a while... but gah... I'm in severe pain thanks to this.

And this isn't the first time it's done this. Female problems are common in my family. So yeah, it's pretty bad when most women in your family have had a hystorectumy by 25. Yes, you heard me right. That's the running age. Though I don't intend on getting mine removed unless it's impossible to get around, but fuck... Aunt BamBam had HERS removed at 20. She didn't even get to HAVE kids. At least w/ 3 periods a month I know that my body is, at the very least, telling me I still can. :P Ha.

Yes, normally I consider my periods as a somewhat special time because, my body is obviously telling me it can reproduce, but um, right now? It's not so great. x_x;

I'm in some pain at the moment, not just from my ovaries...but from my back...

I think I need my Anaprox switched.... because it is now not working for my period, which sucks big time. Oh yes, you heard me right, the medication I usually squeal "SAVIOR!!!" at, is no longer working for my periods. Goody. And my heating pad burned out. ^_^; At this point I'm considering taking 2 ativan and a baclophen to make my muscles relax.

Bone pain isn't too bad, the Kadian is doing much better than I even expected. Which has made me -very- happy... a lower dose of Morphine with even better results! FUCK YES! ^_______^

I'm reading Holy Blood, Holy Grail at the moment. Whee. I also have Josie on me forcing me to love on her. ^_^; And I'm done rambling.