As the storm begins to rise....

Whee. I've been in a creative mood lately. Poetic, Painting, beading, you name it, I've been doing it. ^_^;; Mostly the writing though.

Right now I feel sick. I hate my period at the moment. Meh. I feel icky because I've had 3 in the last month...

But I am tired of being your Savior,
And I am tired of telling you why.

I warned you. I tried to warn you. You chose not to listen to me. I wash my hands of this. What you choose to do to him and to yourself is your own choice. You were warned about how I felt. You were warned what would happen. How am I to blame if you won't listen to more than one person's warnings? Oh well. You'll learn soon enough what you want and by then it may be too late. Either way things between our friendship I think are frozen at this point. They will not get any better nor any worse on my part. Maybe on yours because I'm withdrawing myself, but I've got good reason to. Your hurts will not be my fault this time around. There is a reason I've done things the way I've done them. Done is done, I cannot undo them. Either way the only thing I may do is stand by them. I stand by what I said because it's the truth. Nothing good will come of rehashing all of these things...

It matters not to me now what you do. I love you but I won't watch you allow yourself to be destroyed. Maybe you didn't realize it but BLIND faith has gotten you nothing so far. What makes you think blindly obeying someone yet again will make good come to you?

You made your choice, and I am making mine, to force myself not to fucking bother telling the complete truth to you until you've gotten your act together. I had a backup plan in order, so what does it matter? I was hurt at first. Very hurt, but you know what? Now I'm just annoyed. Now I'm just angry. I'll get over it, sooner or later, once I'm prooved right I'll get over it and the anger will go away... heh.

Hmm.... Half of these are right.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Things wrong:
1. I don't give a shit about good manners ^_^;
4. I wouldn't be forced to break up with someone whom was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Unless they treated my friends like that.... THEN yes.
6. It's not because of 'society' and 'morality' that I wouldn't cheat... I wouldn't cheat because I don't want the same done to me! I wouldn't cheat also for other reasons.... But I consider cheating a dealbreaker and the guilt would get to me. I'd leave rather than make them hurt because I didn't remain faithful....
7. I think about marriage more than one might think.... I've even thought it through. ^_^;; I know what I want in my future marriage, and, I actually watch -every- show that comes on about having a good marriage.... that might seem silly to you but I plan when I marry someone to KEEP the relationship good.


Things Right:
2. Of course I want my dearest to think I'm alluring and stylish. Who doesn't want the person they love to think such things?
3. True ^_^; I'm very creative... I like being creative with the person I love.
5. Yes, I prefer completely open relationships with no secrets...
8. Yes, I do think of love as something I thirst for....